Well, I’ve been trying to figure some things out with this whole “spit personality” thing, and I’m posting what I’ve figured out so far here.
First of all, I’m Hyde. Well, no, let me rephrase that. I’m Jekyll right now. But I’m both Jekyll and Hyde. Let me elaborate: Jekyll and Hyde aren’t exactly a split personality. They’re more like different elements of the subconscious, or different personas. I’m looking back over the posts that Hyde made, and I’m finding that I can remember making every single one of them. That’s…not how things should be. If I’m a proxy, I shouldn’t be able to remember things at all, from all the past instances I’ve seen. I’m not sure if I am one or not at this point.
See, every post that Hyde makes, I remember posting. I look over it and say “yeah, I remember writing that.” I just look back over it after it’s posted and go “what the hell was I thinking when I wrote that?” It seems less like Jekyll and Hyde are different personalities, and more like they’re different personas.
Here’s the scary thing. The Hyde persona doesn’t seem to be one I’m consciously taking on. It seems like Hyde is a part of my subconscious that’s being pulled out. I’ve seen him post on a few other blogs, and it’s kind of painful to read, just because I know that I kind of actually think like that.
He posted on Kaiju’s blog here, and then here, asking (rather agressively) to join NAPPA. It was a pretty transparent ruse, disgustingly easy to see through. And when I read it, I can’t help but think that this is me trying to say “I told you so” to him. It’s no secret that I’ve never trusted organizations, and I’m really not a big advocate of actively engaging proxies. This is me flaming Kaiju as Hyde, trying to get in to say “hey, look, you accept untrustworthy people into your organization.” (Speaking of which, I couldn’t catch back up on YggdrasilCore’s blog when I tried pulling myself away for a bit…is he a proxy now or something? I can’t quite tell)
Also, he posted on White Elephants here. This is the one that really worries me. His post on Robert is kind of exactly what I think of the man. Robert is batshit fucking insane by this point. I stand by that assertion. But Hyde’s not putting it in the way I would. He’s baiting him, speaking in a snarky pretentious “British Gentleman’s” voice, as far as I can tell.
So think of it like this. Hyde’s kind of like me, only a troll. Or if you think that Jekyll’s a troll too, a different kind of troll. A worse kind. Because Hyde has an agenda. I don’t know what it is, yet, but I know that it has something to do with me being broken in the labyrinth. Jekyll’s still the same guy that you’ve known all this time, but Hyde’s working for the Slender Man.
Oh, incidentally, he let me know what blogs he posted on by writing a note. My handwriting. Cursive, like I normally write in. Only the slant is the opposite direction. Real fucking clever, Hyde. Real fucking clever.