Thursday, April 14, 2011

Still Alive


This was a triumph.  I’m making a note here, huge success.  It’s hard to overstate my satisfaction.  I did what I can because I must.  For the good of all of us. 

Except we still end up dead.

But there’s no sense crying over every mistake.  You just keep on trying, and the work gets done, and you find a way to help the people who are still alive.

She’s not even angry.  I’m being so sincere right now.  Even though I broke her heart and killed her.  And tore her to pieces.  And threw every piece into a fire.  As she burned it hurt because she cared so much for me.  And she’s glad she got burned…because she was just trying to protect me and now she’s dead and I’m still alive.

Go ahead and leave me.  I think I prefer to stay inside.  Maybe you’ll find someone else to help you.  Maybe Frap.  That was a joke.  Ha, ha.  Fat fucking chance.

Look at me still talking when there’s nothing more to do.  And I’m sure you’re saying that you’re glad your not me.  You’ve got experiments and research to be done but nobody’s gonna do it anymore and if they are it’s sure as hell not going to be me.

And believe me, I am still alive.

I’m completely broken but I’m still alive.

And everyone’s dying and Girl is dead and Amelia is dead and Jeff is dead and Jay is dead and everyone is dead but I’m still alive.

…Why the hell am I still alive?


  1. Hmm. I love Portal. Sucks to be running with the new one coming out Monday, huh?

    And yep. Everyone is dead. Kinda sucks. But you know what? Fuck it. Every second I'm alive is another thorn in the side of Slender Douche. I'm thinking that if I can stay alive long enough to spite the bastard who killed my parents, brother, lover and friends, it's worth it.

    But I'm a vindictive bitch. So you know, angst all you want. You're alive. You should fuck shit up while you still can.

  2. Great joke. I can't tell if it's a fat fucking chance because you don't like him or something else. Either way, not everyone is dead. Not yet.

    ...Though I also love Portal.